I know how hard that is. I'm still trying to cope with a similar situation and it's really difficult. I am thankful that I found a new t that I was comfortable with right away (as in the first 5 min). I have a lot of conflicting emotions though, as I think this t is going to be better than my old one. It doesn't stop the pain of losing the old t, but I'm comfortable talking to the new one about it. It may not feel like it now, and I didn't believe it either, but sometimes things happen for a reason, and things will be better.