Yesterday, after our recent holiday party, my mom told me she was upset that my brother did not get them anything. Then said they were upset that my kids didn't make them cards or get them anything. I admit that is my fault, I should have told them to do so. I got them a small gift that I knew they would like and I reminded her about that. She has never said anything like this before and it made me feel awful about myself. When I feel guilty or bad for doing/not doing something I slide into depression. I felt so awful after talking to her yesterday I cut myself (which I don't do- yet recently have done a few times for first time in 20 years). Today I still feel like crap and I am going to talk to her about it to clear the air, but I can't seem to get out of this darkness and tears fall just sitting here.

I had been doing so good for past 2 months. Is this a borderline thing- being so affected by environment?