I'm curious about why you would not want to discuss this with your doc?
Is it a p-doc or psychotherapist or a primary care provider? In any case, they're all beholden to client confidentiality laws. You might benefit from talking to a trained therapist with experience/credentials in addiction treatment. Just a thought. MW and similar strategies will work if you do them consistently and with an open mind. They aren't the quick fixes that your pills are and it may take quite some time before you start noticing any internal changes. Think of this, though: 90% of the general public has found a way to cope with life without intoxicants; what is their strategy?