Yes, I have. And I would love and cherish any child of my own no matter if they're biologically mine or not. There's only 2 reasons I prefer to have a biological child over adopting. 1. Cheaper. 2. I want the whole experience: feeling the fetus grow, kick, move. Yes, going through labor. Breastfeeding, diapers, middle of the night feedings. I want to experience the joys and the pains, crazy, huh?

With adoption, I would want it to be a baby. Again, so I can experience as much of motherhood as possible. And my fiance would want it to be from Italy or Russia. Though, Italy doesn't adopt out to people who aren't citizens of Italy. And I think Russian babies are quite in demand.

Adoption has a lot of pro's though for me physically and mentally. I won't have to go off my meds. I can probably skip postpartum. The child won't have my genetic problems. I also wouldn't have to worry about my infertility and getting medical assistance. And most importantly, I would be providing a child who is in need the best opportunity I can give at a quality life.

It is definitely an option though. For now, natural or adoption still must wait. The coping skills from DBT will help greatly for coping with the pains of motherhood. And my fiance still would need to demonstrate effort in some way shape or form.

I think it's awesome you adopted your boys. And I thank you for bringing this up. It does make the "time crunch" I'm feeling less important. And it is just as good of an option when it come to living my dream.