I would appreciate if someone here can help me out on this:
First issue - I hate zoloft so much, because it ruined my sex life. I was on those damn pills for 2 years and i regret it so hard. How could i be such idiot to become pathetic slave of phyzer? They were one of the factors that made my ex-girlfriend dump me. I mean, after 2 years i have decided to stop taking them. And since then i developed extreme form of premature ejaculation. I became a minute man and i could not satisfy her at all. There is some information in the web, that this kind of effect could last for whole life for some men. Those damn pills!
Second issue - in the end she cheated and dumped me. Now i imagine her being satisfied with another and this imagination killing me. I havent masturbated at all since the breakup, which was 4 months ago, because i feel disgusted towards any sexual visualisation. Is it bad for health of young man to not masturbate at all? I heared that can trigger prostatitis. Whenever i feel sudden desire, the memory of my ex appears in mind, i starting imagine her with my ex-friend, who obviously can last longer that 2 minutes. I feel like i have failed as a male.
Now i feel strong desire to find another girl, but whats the point? She would dump me after first sex. Im now at the last course of university and there are so many attractive girls, but im too scared to show my premature ejaculations if it even comes to sex with one of them. But who am i kidding...my confidence is low at the moment, that none of them would even give me the possibility. When i realized this, i began to think about hookers. But it makes even less sense. Paying 1/4 of my salary just to 3 minutes sex maximum? Not the best option for money spending. So in the result, i most definetely wont have sex for many-many years, while my ex will have it everyday. How to stop caring about it? It became such a big deal for me.