I just got on the scale after 3 months and I've gained 10 pounds. I'm horrified. It's been 3 months since I've binged and purged and dieted and I've gained 10 fricken pounds!

I'm just on the cusp of being officially overweight. I need to lose weight.

I'm not sure I can deal with this in a healthy way. I want to be 20 lbs lighter yesterday, if you know what I mean. Losing 1 pound a week is too slow.

I'm probably going to try to starve again. I just hope this doesn't begin the binge/purge cycle again. For the first time in 3 months I thought about purging again today.