Hello All, this is my first post here so am kinda nervous... i have been reading through lots of the other posts and have felt a great deal of comfort from knowing i am not alone with this stuff!

My T is on holiday for TWO weeks...AHHHHHH!! i last saw her on Wednesday and wont see her again now til Weds 30th May... breaks feel unbearable for me... i literally feel like i wont survive them... suffer from major anxiety, and seeing T feels like the only way to get calm at the moment...

i had never tried anything like therapy before, but have been seeing T for nearly 3 years now... i feel that things have definitely improved, but breaks seem to send me flying back into chaos... i miss T SO much it hurts... and its been like that right from the very first session...

in the very first instant, the connection i felt with T was phenomenally powerful... like nothing i have ever, or probably will ever, feel again... i would compare it to what people would call love at first sight... but even that doesn’t seem anywhere close to it... it was like meeting someone who was the total personification of everything missing in my life... everything i wanted and everything i needed... without knowing anything about her at all, i felt complete trust... complete love... complete dependency...

i don’t know if that is a good thing or not... but it feels good... and right now i guess it is what i need... but it does make breaks especially difficult... how do you guys deal with breaks? my T lets me text her on her cell phone... but i try very hard to limit it to once or twice over the break... have already used one up!

how much do you get to know from your T about breaks? do you know where they go on holiday? who with? there are always a million questions huh?!

anyway, thank you for listening (reading!), this site seems great and i look forward to being a part of it...

best wishes Nikki x