Dear T,
Not wanting to disturb your holiday, I've come up with the ingenious plan of rerouting this email to PC. Maybe I'll send you a copy of this before my next appointment. Maybe I won't. Who knows?!

I did the social thing a little while ago. It was only for a few minutes, but that was more than enough. The voices are beating me down. Going on and on. Yel!ing at me. I'm inside myself, screaming. I need to talk to you so badly. IDK how to make this stop. It's like I'm having a mentally anaphylactic reaction to people. This isn't how life is supposed to be. I know you want me to try being around people more. I have tried so many times. I've lost hope. I'm sorry. I'm mentally, emotionally & physically exhausted. IDKY I can't seem to get better. I feel like I'm failing everyone.

Hope your Christmas is going great! I'm glad I decided to not insinuate my negativity into your holidays.

[wasn't sure if this was a trigger-type message]