Thanks Laini, Most of it is over for me, I am back home and it is nice and quiet! Glad that I did not put up a tree this year and a bunch of decorations. None actually. I have never done this, I felt bad about it all month!

I do realize how I did this to myself, nearly made myself physically ill over it all. Now I see how I only tortured myself. The gathering was fine, not stressful at all. My sister sort of looked miserable towards the end. Her health is not good. I feel really stupid for stressing so much. I didn't even cook much which I am pretty good at and enjoy.

I wonder why I do this to myself and how I could prevent it in the future.