Well i guess I made it through another day. Had a friend come over for a short time and then took care of snow removal. Tomorrow i have lunch with a friend but really want to be with my other friends that are more like my family. They say i am family but I wasn't invited to the cities (five hours from here) to be with them over the holidays. I guess I was wanting too much I know they care about me so that should make me feel better. I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself. Anyway, I am still here, still depressed and still feel there is little or no point to my continued existence.