I keep very quiet my own mind is an adventure alone on it's own. I think very much like an omniscent presence one that is ahead and behind in the now and has everything in tune. I'd rather not go to mars, I don't really care to colonize that place nor the moon, but I'd love to walk on it.

I though of my own version of this, which I found easily enjoy able, get sucked into my own mind. Kinda like tibetan monks on meditation or hindu spiritualists who live in isolation. I find them fascinating people, and that hence why the reason I think scientist's don't acknowledge their efforts hence while equally confused on their success of not eating and meditating for many years.

Someday I'll find the strength to try this on my own. I had my own guesses on some of the techniques used, on this. It would require not just meditation of over my anxieties, but a mastery of turning off my body parts at ease and full control of my self in the surroundings I'm in. I could get nutrients from dirt and the air that hits me and the moisture from the trees and rain/snow from just sitting there.

I figure it's a serious strength of mind over matter, it's why I see those monks fascinating people. They aren't just physically adept humans, but mentally too, but some are far beyond the scale of them and become what people try to achieve there even dahli lamas can't get to it in their life times of nirvana.

What my calling of that enlightenment truly is, is that your body is no longer tied down by the physical substance it's required whether it's breathing, eating, sleeping, and drinking water. It requires some serious concentration and years to reach once reached the true enlightenment begins of the mind adapting to the new perception of what the world truly is without the limitations of the body to hold it back.

Basically think of it as your body not actually there to begin with and you are existing as you without needed to keep you going. It may also grant the ability to look beyond into yourself over everyone else like when scientists say we only use 10% some people use more, but the rest is used for other parts and subconsciously and the other for storage.

Knowing about human anatomy. I'd love to be around someone who wants to know the same things I do.

I had these dreams and out of body experiences understanding things when I say it back to people I know they think I'm on drugs or I'm psychotic, when I didn't choose to think this way. I'm pretty happy I'm living like I am, because I'd be bored out of my mind just to make up new ideas from doing drugs just to get where I'm at constantly.

I only tried hallucinatory drugs once, just to know. It enlightened me on how a brain works and the responses of the waves of pulsing activity in the parts that were being affected. I've had my vision skewed to see many colors and distortions and my voice changed pitches so my findings were marvelous, because it shown how fragile and natural the brain works even under the circumstances of lack of reality. People think they are in a different world or altered state.

On the outside yes, but really no. Their brain is working it's way how it should, the drugs are doing what it should do, but the consequences people get from psychosis, it's an anxiety of constant response of like, for example when you get lost from your destination in your car and you aren't in the area you should be on your map or gps you freak out and need to find the nearest way back on track.. That's exactly how psychosis works and schizophrenia, how it feels, but for people who have schizophrenia by text book definition never know what it means to be schizophrenic even when told how it works, because they are so lost on the road they can't find their way back on their own even with medication to reduce the inhibitors to fire of signals that enable those positive and negative symptoms.

I'm a really unknown case of psychosis, I am completely aware of myself and everything, but I suffer like everyone else who has it. I was almost given schizophrenia at age of 8. Why this is relevant, because this ties into my need for companionship just someone who feels like forever whether present or not because they existed in my life it made me feel I'm not so alone. I don't care who they are as long as they show up when they do on time, as on time I mean in my lifetime.