Yeah it wasn't really my upbringing or much that brought upon this, but rather myself and just me finding my own way alone. I guess from being so used to it, I just wanted answers and didn't ever settled for the easy answers. Whether it was for religion, anatomy, astronomy, and anything that had the abstracts destroy the facts from the basic equations. I just find all that measurement a waste of time, because you aren't getting closer if you aren't applying it to the right areas. It's good that they are currently building from the the complex to the more complex, but that shouldn't be the only road. They need to reevaluate how things are handled, look at it as if the measurement of whatever they are trying to prove shouldn't require complexity or simple ?'s. I should have relevancy, but a lot of time being put into trying to like apply math and science to ways it couldn't had been thought of before till now, because we now can do it. I find that the math itself is too subjective hence why there are so many theories and not so many just basic facts of basic building block functioning. If we were to ever get off the ground we should not build a ship out of artificial means, but build natural stuff how mother nature does on that scale through measurement of all things.

I want to prove death, life after death, without religion or what we used to use for science. I want to prove perception and how we are limited by our perceptions even more than we realize. For example, perception is like a muscle when you work out. Even with a good attitude and happy life, your perception can hold you back, doesn't matter how good and bad you have it, if you work it out more through life experience and mental training you can see much easier how to build it like a muscle to tip top shape so not matter what mood you are still grounded.