Thanks for the hugs. I don't feel like I deserve them, but thanks anyway.

Why do I feel like a fool? Because every step I've made, every turn I've taken, every choice I've decided upon.....all were wrong, my whole life. I find myself at a place in my life where all my wrong choices have left me with no more options. I thought I understood everything I've experienced. I thought there were reasons for it all. For years and years I believed that, and I plowed on through towards what I THOUGHT was the goal. I was mistaken. No surprise. The goal is gone, the options towards ANYTHING are gone. I'm STUCK. I'm completely and absolutely stuck on a dead-end road, without gas, in the middle of the night, in a foreign country. All I can do is sit and watch life pass me by. I have nothing left.

What do you do when, what you've believed in your entire life, turns out to have been nothing more than foolish thoughts? I've trapped myself, and I don't know what to do from here on out.

Thanks for the hugs, though. I guess I just needed to release a bit of my pain.