My ex following me, taking all my support away, hacking into my phone after I admitted I logged into his accounts, toying with my sense of reality, keeping up with my e-mail (which I recently deleted,) keeping up with my obsessive tendencies and "warning" others of the "truth" for their own "good" when I have been like this all my life and never intended on physically harming anyone or badgering them. I feel like I will lose hope of pulling out of this within a few more years.