Merry Christmas. Are you still seeing your therapist? What you have mentioned here could be discussed with her/him. I am alone (I'm divorced) and don't see myself having a relationship ever again; I rarely see friends although some of this is just because I have so little time what with work and classes. But the reality is that I am emotionally exhausted much of the time, and don't have the emotional reserves to put into a love relationship. I can barely keep up with platonic friendships, even though I care about my friends very much.

I just ended my therapeutic relationship with my counselor. She said she thought I was ready to go without seeing her. Oddly enough we never, not even once, discussed why I had no special relationship. I thought that was a failing on her part; on my part the pain is so deep and so long-standing, I cannot bring it up directly myself. I frankly felt like my counselor didn't want to continue with me, and that coupled with my inability to pay the whole fee encouraged her to deem me well enough to soldier on alone.

I hope you get some good understanding and support here from people closer to your own age, and I also hope, if you are seeing a therapist or are willing and able to see one, that you bring this matter to her or his attention, because I would hate to see you go your whole life without a love relationship if you want one.