Whatever is causing the mood/sensory changes sounds very bothersome and you should be proud of yourself for hanging in there. How well do you know your finance's parents? Maybe they won't notice?

Yesterday I had a complete breakdown before going to my in-laws for christmas eve. I took a xanax, tried to stop crying (knew it was a NO mascara kind of night) and the only thing that got me functional again was thinking about the book I am reading. It is a mystery book and I went through the characters in my head and tried to figure it out. That really helped to focus on a different part of the brain.

Why was your lamictal lowered if 200 was good for you? If you took an extra ativan just for today would that help you act more "normal"?

I wish you all the best today and keep us updated.