It's really hard to bed joyful during the holidays when looking through the filter of depression. It sounds like you are doing the best you can do and that is all that anybody can really hope for. I know for the past two years, I didn't even want to hear the word Christmas, but this year things have turned around. The depression has lifted and I am grateful to have made it another year.

I'm glad you have family, even though small. Mine is small, too. And I'm really glad you will be able to put dinner on the table. I hope your depression gets better. I'm proof that it can happen. Only five months ago I was ready to end my life, now I have hope.

My best wishes to you and your family.