Hi fox and hound. Sorry to hear you are feeling so down.

Part of the problem my friend tells me is all the expectations about christmas. Sometimes as an adult, they just feel disappointed by all the memories of being a kid.

You are not a burden to us, the PC community. We are here for you. Please come back and share how things are going. If you have a therapist you may want to set up an appointment to talk about things.

For me I put a sign on the wall "What did I do right?" I found that by focusing on even one thing I did right it was better than focusing on the unfulfilled expectations.

thanks for sharing how you feel.