Hey zinc, the advice in my signature was more so relevant to when I use to abuse speed daily and other uppers to maintain a sufficient and persistent high; including crack. It can be relevant to an extent to this problem here but I have trouble trying to maintain this outlook where I don't need drugs in my system to have a good time and wish not to use pills as a tool pertaining to things anyone could enjoy sober. I heavily support MDMA and advocate it in newbies but after several hundred pills it almost feels like my brain is fried and damage is done. I got offered a 6 for $100.00 pill pack (my dealer's Xmas special) and it's going to be this hard to refuse especially when my favorite producers are playing this weekend and all my friends are going. It's hard to say no but so easy to say yes. I'm being so dysphoric to when I admittedly tell myself the comedowns aren't worth it and I'm tolerant towards them now but I feel this has become more self-destructive. I would love to receive advice from an ex pill head or raver. Thanks everyone, tthanks Zinc. Xox