yep, i realized long ago that these parts of my mind saved my life and kept me functioning, if in a confusing, fragmented way...it was still better than the alternative for the time.

they're a gift i gave myself when no one could or would gift me with the protection, safety i needed. pretty cool

they remained to protect me though it might not have been needed anymore, though the means of protection might not have been the best course, etc., but by then my mind was formed and preset. it's hard to change those presets, to know the ugly, to accept all that???

there were times i was so frustrated and hated this existence that i did curse it, but had to hold onto that bottom line...the intent, and even outcome, was best considering the options...whew. Perfect? No. Best for me? Yes.

Pegasus, and everyone sharing, thank you so much for allowing us to walk with you through this a little bit. This is where we help each other. It's also where we can help the new DID'er...those just dx'ed/in crisis/looking for help or relation, who are logging on for SOMETHING to grab hold of to move forward.

Love,

KD