(((((( bronee ))))))
I think the first AND HARDEST step is embracing it...it's confusing, scary, and alot of other things...embracing it is hard but I think necessary.
It looks like you're on your way there. How cool is that!
We have to remember...denying doesn't make it go away, doesn't make it better, doesn't allow us to heal. Yes, I denied for years as well. In fact, my t wouldn't tell me for years because I knew I couldn't hear it let alone accept it, and I didn't for a long time after that! LOL.
Accepting it and myself, embracing all of it was where my healing began to take place. It was just that huge to my healing to this point.
We understand.
KD
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