I don't want to complain. But Sometimes within my family I feel isolated from everyone else. And i feel really lonely. I think my cousin feels hostile towards me and I don't know why. But I feel like loser. I am jealous of those who socialize with ease in my family. Its been this way with them since college. More than 10 years ago. I should be used to it.

Feeling a little better. I read this: 5 Tips to Stop Making Comparisons and Feeling Bad About Yourself and now going to self soothe