I was triggered pretty bad last week ... not sure exactly what it was but thoughts of the ex kept coming to me..... Not good thoughts or images at all.

I'm been down in the dumps because i'm feeling worthless, that I have too much baggage, I am not making anyone happy. My BF has been snappy at me from time to time and had a big talk with him over MSN tonight, don't know if that issue is resolved. He didn't call and say goodnight, which is a first in a long time, not even a message. Heard the phone ring about 30mins ago and was happy to know he called, but didn't. I think he's tired tonight.

My mood is always shifting. I'm trying to keep busy, but have nothing really to do at this time. I have tried to look for a job but my anxiety keeps getting in the way. I know my BF is disappointed in me .... I know he's frustrated with me, he said that I don't really have a life, and he's right I don't.

I'm just not doing good right now.. I want to give up.

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<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>