First, I did not read all of the replies. You said your mom had three hysterectomies? She can only have one. A hysterectomy is the removal of the uterus. Did she perhaps have tumors and have myomectomies? I had 3 myomectomies, and finally, a hysterectomy at 31.

Only you know what the right thing to do is for you, but I beg you, don't consider having a baby with an abusive man. You could be strapped to him for life if you do, and many of us here have histories of abuse by our parents.....this is where it starts. You can stop it before it starts.

If your T will not read something you type and bring into session, read it TO her. I'm better with words this way than speaking them, and I'm lucky that my T will read what I write her. However, I at times feel guilty for taking up her time.... so sometimes print things out and read them during my session. It's your session. Whether you talk or read, your T shouldn't be able to tell you you cannot read something you've brought in.

I'm glad you wrote your T.

Keep talking. We are here to listen.