Having come from poverty myself, your story struck a cord in my heart. I hope sharing it helped you somewhat, to find some kind of relief, if even it was just brief. I do recommend speaking to someone else. I know at 14, that may seem hard. And from experience, I know that in poverty, it may seem impossible. I found some solace, when I was 14, in support groups like this one. Utilizing the chat rooms, frequenting the forums. There was, also, the school guidance counselor. That is a viable option for some people, if you feel comfortable enough doing that. And of course, your parents. It sounds like your mom cares deeply for you. She may understand. I have no other advice, as I still struggle with poverty to this day. I just want to say to keep striving for your goals. A's and B's... 3.4 GPA? That's nothing to scoff at. Education is tough, especially when battling stress and feelings of depression. Take care, and Merry Christmas to you, too.