I wanted to start a new thread but decided against it as this is more an addition to this topic than it is a stand alone piece.
As I step ever further into adulthood and closer to being an independent man the more I grow enraged at the impenetrable complexities of everyday life. I feel I'm mentally incapable of grasping how anything in the world works despite the ease with which my peers grasp it. I can't even figure out the complexities of a Google+ and now a byzantine web of loans, taxes, social constructs, contradictory rules from debatable holders of power, responsabilities, and global events spin above my head, growing denser as I get ever closer to it. I always knew this stuff existed but before I seemed only to get a trickle of its infinite grandness whereas now it seems the whole thing is dropping right onto my head. Everything is so absurdly complicated in this age that I feel downright mentally crippled as I can't make head or tail of any of it, and I'm terrified of the day that I'll fall flat on my face and get trampled as I miserably fail to keep up with all of this crap. I feel so stupid all of the time because I can't deal with life.