I feel so much angish and despair. I just don't feel like trying anymore. I want my T. I'm crying every night, I'm sleeping most of the day, and my thoughts are really bad. But I don't even think she can bring me comfort now. What can she say or do to make me feel better? I just want my hope back.

I just want to quit. Everyone is right. I shouldn't have a child with my fiance. I shouldn't even be with him. I will never be stable enough anyways. The fact I'm tempted to act out on my thoughts just proves it.

I just wanted this one thing. I've worked my entire life towards this one goal, but I will never be good enough. I don't deserve it. There will always be something more I need to improve on. But I have tried so hard. But I'm still not good enough no matter how much I try.