I am with you "Shattered", although I do have some friends and spent some time last night with one and his family, meeting his youngest daughter, her boyfriend and his son watching their new BlueRay and flat screen TV. Had some good conversations, dinner and laughs... I am single, always have been, been sorta dumped on by 2 younger sisters and they've brought Mom into the quota, so no Christmas, Thanksgiving or Easter's with them anymore. Have a nephew who's been bneen given the silver spoon and we all live within SCREAMING distance on top of the mtn.

He is telling lies to sis's and Mom and stealing stuff/never returning borrowed stuff and I have been barred from going on family, non-deeded property he gets free to live on to "steal" my own property back. In last couple days, he's put up no trespassing signs all over, since I stole MY property back at the barn earlier this week, that my MOM doesn't believe he moved/took after talking to him...i am so glad it's over. To top it off, I basically gave him free use of a front-end loader at std. $ 80. per hr. with operator for about 40+ hrs. on/off and they damaged it in multiple ways with out repairing it or even attempting to offer to repair it and it was brand new to me in June.

Sis's/Mom says I should let them borrow out of the kindness of my heart and NOT EXPECT ANYTHING in RETURN?! Really??? I was brought up, you borrow it-break it, you FIX IT or REPLACE IT, period! And they say that ""I" am the "SICK ONE"???

How old are you? If I need something I buy it and don't desire anything from anyone as I probably don't NEED it, have no place to put it and probably won't use it? I only give to the little ones under age 18 now. At 4 years old, I took my piddly allowance of a quarter and saved and bought Mom and Dad something yearly, even if it was a chinese piece of junk for $ .50 cents and always done so until recently including older over age 18, so called adults. No longer. I had my 28 yuear old nephew come up the other day and ASK for his Christmas present(money) early! I said no more, GET A JOB! He hasn't worked in months............ he spun out of my driveway and Tues. totalled the wonderful low mileage car Mom gave him 6 months ago! Now he has no way to get a job, IF HE WANTED ONE!.

No it's not just any other day, Jesus is the reason for the season!!!. Try to look at it from that aspect. I know it's not easy, but life isn't and I am going thru my family crap also now be barred from the old place, barn, shed and property, as well as not desiring ANY contact with them cause I am just always accused of stuff and always get in fights and am always the loser, no matter the true FACTS. Nephew can do NO wrong and lie through his teeth about stuff and I am supposedly ALWAYS attacking him???

I don't attack unless backed in a corner or have the true facts/evidence of wrong doing (many photos) of how my "stuff" grows legs and seems to walk/run off my property?

I despise emotions and DRAMA and avoid if possible at all costs.... So now I have chosen to back away and be the "fool on the hill", like the song goes. It beats being an arguing/drama filled fool...

New Years is coming up, so what are you going to feel then, no invites to parties, kisses at the witching New Year hr. etc. Better get prepared for another let down, find something/someone to be with before hand so you don't feel in the dumps...

Have you tried a puppy dog or kitty as a companion/friend that gives unconditional love? I hate to go on vacation and leave mine, even though they make occasional mistakes, barks and coughs up wonderful hairballs! Ha, Ha.

Best of feelings...



being alone, not getting any gifts, while everyone else was enjoying christmas was really hard. and to have people tell me, oh just think of it like any
other day, ) that was hard too.

it's not like any other day for me- because people are celebrating, eating turkey, getting gifts, and i'm not- so i can't think of it like any other day.

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