Unfortunately, I think she is going to respect you ending therapy and not contact you. From everything I've read, that's what most T's do even if they feel the desire to contact you - they try to respect your decision. If they kept contacting us after ending, it would be harder on us and they wouldn't want that.

I think the only way to find out about the letter is to maybe have one more session? Maybe you needed to have an actual termination process to go through the feelings you had and be able to say what you need to. But, really think hard about what you would want from that last session?

I think in cases like yours, it's all about having regrets. Regrets that we didn't say or do what we needed to. It sounds painful and I'm sorry you're having to go through this. I'm glad you have another T. with whom to discuss it.