I set out to choose three therapists for an initial session. The trickiness is in the following. This year I have a narrower set of therapists available to me than in the new year when my options are expanded. A few weeks ago I came up with my list of three. Therapist #1 is on my current plan and I have had several sessions with #1. #2 I saw once and have ruled out. Therapist #3 I set up an appointment to see the first full week of the new year.

My present consternation is that I have had several sessions with therapist #1 and have begun to establish a rapport that feels good. Having ruled out #2, I still want to see therapist #3 in the new year. So far, I recognize that the process of seeing two initially has been beneficial. However, going forward I feel conflicted by: 1) devotion to my current therapist and therapy, and 2) the fact that I made an investment to be able to choose from a larger pool of therapists, and I still want to gain the perspective of having seen therapist #3. In other words, on one hand I don't want to inject any potential negativity into the therapy with therapist #1. However, the cost of my new insurance plan will kick in in January and if I don't see therapist #3 then what was the point in purchasing the new plan? And that would bug me. I can see that it's a "good problem" but I'm still conflicted and hoping some of you would talk with me about this.