i feel for you, indestructiblegirl. your mother sounds as if she is being avoidant and insensitive.

i have no idea how i am going to cope this year. i have recently (in the last week) relapsed massively in depression. i was doing so well. now i am terrified of what is to come.

i'm looking to cope through music. i recently got a new laptop and spotify so i can listen to any music i want. i'm redecorating my bedroom to make it cosy and a safe haven for me. i am going to also write a lot, as i love writing, and find creative ways to keep myself alive and get some enjoyment. i will also be trying to see friends a lot.

more importantly i'm going to be nice to myself. i have hope that i can really make life easier for me by not beating up myself. i deserve kindness and i have decided to be nice to me because it is good for myself.