Guess we made it through Christmas. Now one more major depressing holiday to check off the list: New Years. I also guess with a new year coming up I should look back at my blessings for last year. The temptation is to only look at all the bad **** that happened and I guess being disowned by my daughter is bad **** but its her loss. Not sure if the reason she did it to me is because of the depression or whether it is her own craziness. Either way for right now she is almost completely out of my life. But through that loss I found a new family . . . a family of friends . . . that accept me the way I am. That is a major blessing. Another blessing is my new house. It's tiny <1000 sq feet but it is the first place I have had in 13 years. I have my dear family of friends to thank for that. Lastly I am so thankful that I have the strength to keep fighting the terrible thoughts of self injury.
Maybe this is much to long an entry for the checking in thread . . . but after a couple of weeks of hell (suicidal thoughts) I have come back into the light.