I don't think it's disgusting. You're sick and when we are sick we sometimes can't take care of ourselves. I know when I'm depressed it's harder for me to get motivated to get cleaned up. Be gentle with yourself.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha