Anyone else have great anticipation about Christmas and a wonderful Christmas but feeling devastated today? I am feeling devastated and I am assuming and hoping it is because Christmas is over. I have felt deeply suicidal, trying to reason ways to die that my children won't find me dead. At the same time I have been inexplicably anxiety ridden. My mind has been racing and I can't concentrate on anything. I have also been physically sick. I just hope this doesn't last.