Hi everyone. I've been struggling with self care and enjoyment for a few years now. I tend to stay in bed a lot (when I don't have work) reading random things on the Internet or graphic novels. Those are typically symptoms of depression, but I don't feel that omnipresent sadness that comes with depression. I've gone though mild and serious depression before, with life feeling hopeless and gray, so I know what it's like.

I'm not feeling that dark cloud over me. I don't feel sad, just neutral and without motivation. But everything just seems like too big of a chore to handle. Sometimes anxiety stops me. Sometimes the outside world seems overstimulating. I haven't enjoyed making art for a long time. I haven't felt a sense of "fun" in awhile. Maintaining my apartment seems like a big pain, along with getting dressed/showering. Even more fun activities like playing games, watching movies, and riding my bike are met with shrugs. I can list off a number of things I want in my life; I want a cleaner apartment, I want newer clothes and makeup. But I just can't be bothered to drag my feet to accomplish them. It's met with a sense of "ugh", of displeasure.

Can you be depressed without feeling sad?