When I got sober and joined AA after awhile my depression got much worse because I was no longer self medicating. I really had high hopes that if I was going to meeting everyday, working the steps and all that, going to group therapy, one on one therapy, that my depression would get better. It didn't. In twenty years of treatment the only thing that seems to work is if a med is working and often they haven't worked or they quit working. Twenty years of meditation, 12 steps, CBT, you name it......it was and is very disappointing and frustrating. Maybe my depressions would have been much worse, I dunno. But they have gotten worse in recent years, much worse even after all that treatment. I just keep trying. What else are we to do.