Stronger, congratulations on trying to find solutions even if they did not do what was expected. They can all be very helpful but they may not be what can answer the ultimate answer of life, what gift is mine to give.

I look to see what help I can find in a different place, within me. I won't stop taking meds or therapy or getting help from the PDOC, I just don't expect that someone or something can help solve all my problems. Sometimes I don't even know what the problem is. But I never give up. That in itself keeps me from despair.

I am not sure what the answer is for anyone else, but even though I was helped by the mental health system in many ways, I have to dig down deep and face the toughest thing I can face, my own shadows and my own self.

This is what a t has done for me but only when I was really open to change.