Hello
Thanks for your experience and perspective. Maybe this is more my expectations in communication and choices or patient centered issue.

As it was I did have my own meds with me, and not knowing if there were interactions I did not wish to take them without permission.
And when I asked over 3 shifts of nurses they all said they would get back to me, and said they had not heard back from my surgeon. So until they were ordered by my Dr my meds were off limits.

In the health care system I did pay out of pocket for the pre and post surgery care, but the hospital stay and all expenses are covered with my provincial health insurance. I was expected to bring all my meds in original bottles, but was not inspected by the pharmacy.

"Discriminatory" is my irritation showing, really my problem. Also irritabity is a symptom of deepening depression.

When I am anxious and the fears of loss of control, combined with post surgery morphine, and who knows what was used previously a day and half before during the surgery. Add in discomfort and I do not know what caused my startles, visual patterns (hallucinations?) and feeling like I was on a roller coaster. The head rush feeling, or the same as the top of the swing when a child, 'butterflies' This was 36 hrs or 48 hours since my last regular doses. I had not noticed anything prior to that earlier.
The first night I had my usual wakefulness, and was up or awake hourly, which I had with previous general anesthetic procedures.

Maybe I should try two days cold turkey and see what happens to compare. not going to happen. I will discuss this experience with my psychiatrist. Might give me more insight to my depression and anxiety.