I was in kind of the same boat as you op. My pdoc told me I was passively sucidal and I had to active attempts last year alone but in the past I have had about 20 or more attempts. I did five inpatient stays last year alone and they have seemed to have gotten me on the right tract on the last two visits. I have found that taking Lithium has helped me and I am willing to accept the negative side affects cause it is nice not to wake up everyday wishing I was dead. Now Lithium may not help you but there might be something that can it just takes time to find out what will help sometimes. I wish you the best of luck.

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