there is nothing you can say that will shock me. Me= 49 sever bipolar. diagnosed at 27 but was this way all my life. Wanted to die at 13. 1st attempt at 18. many more. Have always hated myself more than words can say. I have lost every thing which in some ways is very freeing. Anyway I understand. I don't offer pity I offer caring because am you. That's my story. Anytime you need to talk. Keep fighting the fight. That's what every day is.
I'll try and but remember I'm nuts.