Hi whateverforever

I get where you are coming from.

You spoke out loud what you felt inside.

There's no shame or guilt to be had in that.

This is what your T is trained for. She's a mental health expert. she wouldn't be in it if she wasn't mentally enabled and highly competent to deal with complex situations.

T's hold a professional stand point. Remember, she is not your "friend". She is your professional advocate. There'd be a huge difference if you had told a close family member last night. You spoke to a trained professional. That's good. She can handle it. This is the stuff she is made of.

So you hold your head up high when you see her or speak to her. You tell her truthfully you were not in a good way. You tell her truthfully what you did last night. You tell her you feel ashamed. Let her guide you through your feelings about this situation. Let her navigate you towards the path of peace in having disclosed this. If she is professional she will guide you towards processing this.

If this is the first time you have contacted your T in this regard about this kind of situation - I would expect there to be some further discussion around what plan of action would be taken if you find yourself in the same situation again. That way there are no surprises for anyone involved.