Hi thank you guys for your suggestions. I've been on the same med mix for a while now...they were adjusted earlier this year. Currently I am on Xanax XR 3mg 2 times a day, and then also neuortin one in the morning and as needed every 4 hours. Also Xanax (fast acting to help reduce the symptoms of panic). And also benedryl and/or risperidol to help me sleep or to take in case they start to get real bad. My doctor wants to put me on a med called Gabitril and usually I am more than willing to take and do whatever I have to not to suffer from such severe daily panic attacks-but one of the side effects is vomiting and as strange as this may sound I have been terrified and i do mean terrified of throwing up that it usually what causes my panic attacks the fear of that or the fear of another one coming. Also the past two mornings(including this one) that I've been here at college, I've been like gagging b/c i feel like my throat is closing up but i gag like over and over and my throat and tounge are killing me...its horrible....i dont know why it happens but needless to say it freaks me out even more. if it happens to anyone else and /or they've learned ways to not have it happen please tell me! i can't take much more of this!!
As far as living off campus- I really want to give the on-campus thing a try-I'm going to go home every weekend-but i dont think you get the whole experience w/o living on campus especially at my college because there are only 400 residents. One of my roomates is pretty sympethetic but its hard for her to relate to what is happening to me. I tried to get in touch with the health center and left a message but no one got back to me and i tried talking to my freshman advisor who is incredibly nice and said she would do her best to get me through this. but that she wouldnt be able to get me into counseling until sometime next week-i just need someone on-campus that i can talk to if im having one someone who will understand and help me through it. and i have been paging my doctor nonstop and he will not call me back-if this continues im afraid i'll end up in the hospital its that bad!! does anyone have any ideas that could make me feel more comfortable? and maybe answer some of the questions i've listed above. it just makes me so sad because i want to be here and i dont want anxiety to beat me i want to beat it but its lso hard. Please help you guys! and for those who have already extended their suggestions i appreciate it very much its nice to know im not so alone
-Ashley