Hi Purple Heart

I am sorry that you are experiencing such pain going through the flashbacks. I think I have PTSD but I have blocked out a lot of my trauma from childhood and I do get bad dreams from these memories occasionally. I may have a lesser degree of PTSD than you do. I kind of self diagnosed myself as well but I have had a therapist to concur. I hope you keep seeking support from your providers and keep reaching out here and talk to your friends or others who you can trust. I wish you the best.