If there's a way to find a T who can really handle this deep stuff I don't know of it. I think maybe the only way to do it is to start by learning skills - mindfulness, DBT, etc., so you can contain yourself enough to not trigger the T's issues and wind up being retraumatized by their sh^t. I know it sucks - Ts should be able to handle our issues, but far too many of them cannot, and we have to learn to protect ourselves if we are to find healing.