I with my children did a lot of our traditions. Midnight mass that is now 10 p.m. go figure.
Went to a very lovely and highly expensive hotel and had a Christmas drink.
Wrapped and opened presents with my children. Had Christmas dinner everyone took part in preparing which is unusual. They were all high on weed and alcohol but for the most part no one really argued and we seemed to have a good time - they were drugged and I was not but that is the way of our lives now. Someday maybe it will not be that way but for now it is the way. It is what it is. As my T and Marsha Linehan states "Everything is as it should be".

So the holidays came with mixed emotions it was a two edged sword.