Just curious - how long have you been dating the current person?

Having read through this post carefully - I can appreciate all that has been written...I have to say though that something still seems a bit off? Not sure what?

I think it might be worth not dating this person seriously and take the month breaks as an opportunity to experience how other men treat you...See if someone else better suits you.

I think it is your originally opening "dating a man I adore, but"

"But" usually negates what ever was said just before it. Maybe that is what is off. I think you may have negated your statement of adoration...

Just something to think about...

P.S. Welcome to PC!