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i feel sad you feel this way because i can relate. two of my most loved friends died of cancer (one was my stepdad) the other the most wonderful woman and friend you could wish to meet. they both loved life and were taken quite young. 3 weeks ago i wanted to die, tried, failed and glad i failed, because what a legacy to leave my children, family and friends, at the time i too felt envious of people who were dead or dying. afterwards i thought how selfish when so many people would give anything not to have a terminal illness. i know it's the depression making you have these thoughts. i just hope you find peace and help and learn to enjoy the rest of your life. i do believe in life after death, i think we are sent back to learn certain lessons in life, eventually when we have learned these lessons we go on to a higher level/plane whatever.

thinking of you, jinnyann