I will probably be homeless in the coming weeks. My condition of staying with my folks was to keep going to school, but my grades didn't turn out what I expected so I am most likely losing my financial aid, which gets me to go to school. Honestly, at this point I just want a full time job to support myself, but it's so hard to find a job close to me because it's far away. I'm 20, and I feel like my life is already over. Already in college debt. I feel like I will never amount to anything. The only thing I really do is volunteer for a bike shop on Saturdays. I totally did not expect this to happen, and I'm starting to really, really get depressed. I have zero confidence in myself what so ever. I feel like I'm a useless piece of crap. Hell, I'm even starting to believe I really am a piece of crap.
I am really close to just packing up some stuff and hitting the road, because I let down my entire family.