I'ld been slipping down into depression on and off, since early October. Christmas is my favorite time of the year, so I pushed myself hard to get out of that hole. By Christmas eve, I thought I was doing pretty reasonable. Since Christmas day, I've slid down real bad. I can't fully account for getting this bad, which usually I can do.

I got sick with a bad cold a week or two before Christmas. I was taking time release sudafed every 12 hours for a few days, which greatly helped some cold symptoms. In fact, getting the cold seemed to lead to me feeling less depressed. By Christmas day, the cold was on its way out and I wasn't needing the Sudafed.

I'm getting suspicious that the Sudafed actually helped my depression and that stopping it contributed to me relapsing mentally. Does that sound completely crazy?

I know a lot of PC members take Ritalin and Adderal for depression. Since Sudafed is a stimulant, it might have some similar effects. I wonder if anyone thinks this is possible. Also, does anyone have experience with going off a stimulant only to plunge into depression?

I can't tell you how desperate I feel. Tomorrow morning I plan to take some sudafed to see if that helps. Today I've had depression mixed with anxiety that is just awful.