That is such a good question. I would love to get better and start feeling happiness more often. When happiness comes by these days it's very short and soon after It goes away. I'm so emotional these days. It's practically impossible for me to reason myself and not to have expectations..my logic says..don't expect..my heart can't. Another thing I notice is that, it's like I won't let myself be happy..how can I be miserable for hours than someone, something comes along that should make me happy..but no..it's never enough..it's like I just won't let myself be happy because it can be taken away so fast and be so painful that it's sometimes better to wish about it..ahhh anyways thats my answer at this moment..knowing myself..on a different day, it would be a whole different answer. ahhh MOODS grrr seem to control my life